Mid Year Examination. General Paper

Today, Monday 30th May 2005 is the first mid-year examination paper: General Paper. For the essay, I chose question no.7 entitled: "Death gives meaning to life." Comment.
In the process of my mind when the impulses is travelling towards the brain to decide on that question, it seems to me that I can think of several unique, differing and interesting points to talk about. Yet, when I started writing, only the introduction feel good. The rest of the essay becomes quite boring. It feels as if I'm writing the same points for 5 different paragraphs, the only difference is that the point applies to different examples. Well, now I can only keep my fingers crossed that my essay will score well.
For the comprehension, I thought it was easier than what I expect it to be. But, this is usually the danger that lurks around. Easy on the feeling may turn out to be blunders on the result. So just hope I did justice to the paper, and score the grades I deserve to get.
After the papers, went to eat at Whitesand Delifrance with the usual bunch of people: Gerald, Ky, Xiang Rong and Joy. In addition: Cass, Benedict and Jeffrey. Then, Joy has to rush back to school to sit for her Literature paper. Hopefully, she done well. Then, we watched Star Wars Ep.III. And for me, it was the second time I watched. Movies ended around 5.25, and everyone headed back home. I slept throughout the whole MRT journey. Reached home, ate dinner, shower, slack till now writing the post.
I'm so freaking annoyed. I went to buy a DVD, and my computer cannot play it! It is twice already! Waste my money! The only DVD that the com can play is the stupid OC!!!!! ARgh!

SYF.

A belated post.
Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging of Choirs (Junior Colleges).
Choir number 15, Meridian Junior College ... GOLD.

Farewell.

27th May, Friday. Choir Farewell.
It all started ordinary. Buffet dinner sponsored by Mr Pang.. Everyone were in their own cliques, taking photos......
It was later after the cutting of the 'farewell' cake, that the farewell started more emotional. First is the giving out gift to the outgoing year 2 committee from the successive year 1 committee. (thank you Rachel for the adorable 'forever friends' bear). Then, the choir stands in circle and started to sing 'Sprited Away'. Some cried. I was on the verge of tearing. The sad moment of almost melancholy feeling penetrate the air particles of MJC atrium creating an ambience of emotive atmosphere. The choir then sang 'Thank you for the music'. This time round it was even more intense the sadness and emotions. My tears began to flow. It was unprepared. I did not expect myself to cry, because I never cried for any farewell in the CCA. Then the chamber choir perform for us the two songs, seeing Xiang Rong cry, and seeing BK who was sick but still sing and almost crying, and the whole idea of farewell, makes me cry even more. This is by far the most touching farewell I've ever had. I'm so gonna miss choir just like the way I miss my secondary school band. I'm so looking forward to compete in KL at the end of the year. Hopefully, the year 2 guys (exception of me) will not be so early enlisted for NS. Thank you Mr Kwei and Mr Yong for kind presence in the farewell, and the speech given.
After the farewell, which was about 9 45, around 18 of us including Mr Yong, went to watch Monster In-Law. The show was funny due to the intense bitchiness. At least it didn't make me sleep. After the movie, it was already one past ten in the morning. Some made a move home, while Gerald, Kok Yong, Cassandra, Jun Wen and I went to the coffeeshop nearby Zheng Jie place to eat. We chit chat, which by the way, was interesting and heart warming, till about 3am. Then we went home.....
My memories in choir will always be inside me. Good luck and all the best to the year 1 committee members. I'm sure all of you can bring choir to a greater height of quality and repute. It's been a great time working with all of you. Thank you all the year 2s for the friendship and bonds we have in choir. Thank you all the year 1s for making choir more interesting. Love you all!

La Risonanza II

26th May 2005. Victoria Concert Hall. 7.30pm. La Risonanza II: a production by Meridian Junior College Choir. It was the 2nd public performance owned by the choir, as well as the 2nd installment of the La Risonanza series.
2 weeks before the concert: SYF was just over. Everyone were tired, rehearsals for the concert were lacking of energy. Some of the songs are totally new. Learning of the songs were done so quick. There were no sectionals at all! Fear of failure of the concert can be sensed floating in the air. Dance steps for the ABBA have to be learnt, and not all the songs are done with the choreography. Furthermore, ticket sales are kinda bad. Members are selling ticket too slowly. But well, I am proud of myself for selling all ten tickets considering i wasn't from choir and so all the tickets that I sold are for those who are totally have no idea what choir concert is all about.
1 week before the concert: The new songs began to sound quite pleasant though there are still parts of the songs where people rubbish through. Some choreography were done to several songs to add spice, which is cool. ABBA dance steps for Super Trouper and Mamma Mia more or less taught to the members. And the steps are nice considering it was a last minute inspiration. Thanks to Kok Yong and Daolin, both of you had done a great job. Chamber choir too had done great job in learning their two songs (which compared to the rest of the 'pop' songs the choir is singing, more difficult?) fast, including the hilarious yet interesting choreography for 'short people'.
Concert day: Excitement diffuse through the dry atmosphere of the victoria concert hall. TKSS choir is joining the concert as the guest choir. And it must be said that they are fantastic, super! For the first songs, the halls were not fully filled. The circle seats were near empty. However, the choir just sings its best for the audience who had turned up. Ave verum corpus by MJChoir was nicely done, Lux Aurumque by MJchoir was soothing and warm (at least I think it sounded more than nice), Shoga III by MJchoir to me wasn't too nicely done, Itsumo Nando Demo by MJchoir was better than expected after much trouble memorising the words. Then it was the TKSS performance. I heard their performance was stunning. Well done. Follow up was the female chorus with two songs from the les choristes. They sounded very good. Zofia, well done for the solo part. Her voice is as pure as Morhange, the boy who sings at les choristes. Then it was the male chorus. Glad the audience like it and laugh, perhaps, for the simple choreography that was done to the songs. -Intermission - 2nd half of the concert: the hall was almost filled. That was a good sign! The Year II chorus did not do a very great job. Well to me, it sounded bad, some forgot their lyrics (including me). haha. Then it was the chamber choir performance. Comprising of mainly good singers and die-hard enthusiasts of choir, they really sounded goldly harmonious as a group. Well done Xiang Rong for the solo in short people, and for the humorous acting. Then TKSS again. Last but not least, the ABBA! The choir members burst into stage with much energy to perform the ABBA songs with its choreographed moves. Overall, the ABBA was done according to expectation. Not less, not more.
After concert: comments from my friends was joyful. All of them enjoyed the concert (yay!) and agreed that it was worth the money. One of them commented that the La Risonanza II was better than the La Risonanza I. Another one, commented that this concert was an eye-opener to him. Heard from some other audience, that the concert is a great job done. That they enjoy the concert to the fullest!. Congratulations to all Meridian Junior College choristers.
Before I end this post, just wanna thanks the following group of people: Kok Yong for the ticket sales and administrative work. Kok Yong and Daolin for the choreography. Gerald for music preparation including warm-ups. Benjamin for the concert schedule. Joy and Daolin for publicity of the concert. The rest of the committee for doing a great job in their assigned area. The Year 1 committee for helping us out, especially Rachel for helping in the treasury work. The choir members for coming consistently for rehearsals.
*MJ Choir rawks!*

Gathering.

Saturday. 21 May 2005 1000 - 1600: Choir Practice. Went home straight and then met up my secondary school friends at parkway parade for gathering. Supposed to reach there by around 6/6.30pm, but the rain + traffic jam made me late for about one hour. Had dinner at fish 'n' co which by the way does not make me full, which by the way is surprising, cos most of the time, I am always full after eating fish'n'co. This gathering was a come back after a few months of no reunion..Can't really say it was that fun, but I did enjoy the company. After dinner, went to Lido to watch 'Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith". I and the usual midnight movie watcher gang caught the 12am show which ended only at 2.20 in the morning. The show is rather cool with all the well-done graphics. However, somehow, it is still not what i expected it to be. If i were to rate, I would give 3.5 stars out of 5. But, then again, this judgement might be biased considering I almost sleep in the cinema. Fortunately, I didn't. Had to wake my guardian up so as to open door for me. Haha.

These few daes.

No new posts for these few daes partly is due to the exhausting day of school and choir practice. Also, I could not log into the friendster. Perhaps, the server was busy. So anyway, these are some of the significant things that happen in these few days.
WEDNESDAY, 18 MAY ~ Woke up at 5.30. Rush out of house to catch as early train as possible just so that I am able to reach school punctually for voice warm-up. The choir has to perform the SYF pieces to the JC2. Having to wake up so early, that would mean the rest of the day, was utterly tiring and sleepy. After school, had choir practice for the concert. We announce the new committee, which in my opinion, a very strong, stable and committed committee. Congratulationz to all of them! Reach home at around 11.30. No time for work, so just had a warm bathe then it was the sleeping time!
THURSDAY, 19 MAY ~ Again, has to woke up early. Why? Again, the choir has to perform the SYF pieces, but this time round was for the JC1. As many people were late, the warm-up wasn't effective. As a result, we sounded quite badly (as heard from some). Then it was lessons as per normal. Boring. Routine. Nothing special. School ended at 2, rush home, had my lunch, shower, then went to the national skin centre to check for the white spots on my face. After some test, the doctor consultant said that I am allergic to sun. Haha. So, has to put on sunblock everytime I leave my house. And that would mean, no more sun-tanning for me! As I leave the skin centre around 5+, I was late for the ABBA dance practice in school..
FRIDAY, 20 MAY ~ Was naturally awaken at 3.45. Then I felt so happy since I got a few more hours to sleep. In the end, woke up late. Rush, rush, rush....to school. Then, gotten back my Chemistry test which indeed was an ultimate disaster. Got 6.5/39. Then, it was the F Maths Lecture Test. I'm so disappointed with myself for not being able to do the statistics part to the flawless level. I FORGOT how to do, and I got a weird answer, and I only manage to be able to score a 50% pass. Then for mechanics bit, though the questions are the normal standard -considered easy- question, I still left blanks, simply because my mechanics are too weak. After school, went down to Siglap South CC to see the chamber chorus having their practice. At 8.30 when the practice was over, we left for bedok 85 market to have dinner. Hungry me, eat so full, till got stomachache and had to rush home.
Holiday is coming very soon. I'm excited, at the same time worried about the Mid-year Examinations that is coming up. I need a lot of consolidation for my chemistry and further maths. Have to really put my mind and soul into mugging, so as to know where my standard is so far. But at the same time, I know I won't be mugging all the way. (:
That's all for now ~

Im so freaking tired.

I'm so tired. Tired of what? Tired of everything. Tired of schooling. Tired of accepting. Tired of thinking. Tired of my present life. Why must all this happen?
I miss my secondary school friends. I miss my mum. I miss my brother. Life then was just so simple, no worries. Hakuna Matata it is. Life now is not that terribly wrong. I just find it becoming more complex, more corners of irritating feeling, more space of feeling loneliness, more gap of pessimistic feeling, more occasion of feeling sad when there is no particular reason.
I have got no idea why I am feeling this way. Why I am writing this post?...Maybe it's because I wanna a break. I'm stressed. But with what, by what, I don't really know. I just look forward to the holiday. Looking forward to the end of A level.
God bless me.

Again. and Thursday.

Waking up late behaviour has been pestering me non-stop. Almost every consecutive day, I woke up late - 45 mins or more passed the set alarm time. As such, I have to rush my shower, breakfast. and run to catch the 6.45 train. If there is no time to catch that latest train, I have to take cab. And this month, my money has been going down the drain just because of cab fare..
So today, I woke up late again. Took cab to school again. Was actually late, but I came into school through the canteen side door. There was no teacher there so was lucky not to get my name taken down. Assembled at the hall to listen to MJ Chinese Orchestra. Though they got a silver in the recent SYF, to me, they sounded above expectation. Except for certain parts where the chords doesn't form and the notes went off, their dynamics were actually reasonably smooth and pleasant. After that was the first period of lesson, and i.e. my free period. Went to canteen and do some questions of the sampling theory tutorial. Next, is the F maths lecture, followed by recess, F maths lecture again, Chem lect, GP (which was quite engaging), F maths tutorial, PCCG. Ms Sharon Lim was having high fever, so Ms Choo reliefed the class. Did some target setting for the midyear, prelim and lastly A level. Then got the news to decorate the class notice board all because this saturday there is JC 1 Parent's orientation. They do not want the parents to see the class so badly decorated. So after PCCG, decided to decorate the notice board but unfortunately the J1s are using my civics room, so have to do it later. Wait for Joy, then she, Xiang Rong and I went to Century Square to have lunch (sushi buffet at Sakae Sushi). Then for after several times, we finally bought the VJC concert ticket from SISTIC. Joy and I are supposed to go back to school - Joy has to complete her comprehension and I have to do the notice board. However, both of us feel damn tired and sleepy, so we decided not to go back and instead went home.....
Tomorrow, the plan is to reach school by 7am to do the notice board. Hopefully, I would be able to wake up! MJ Band is performing their Invictus tomorrow. Can't wait to hear them play... : )

NAPFA

I had my NAPFA test yesterday. The weather isn't that optimal for physical fitness test, but somehow the PE dept just made us do the NAPFA. Despite that, I was proud of myself for being able to perform beyond my expectation. For example, I couldn't do pull up for nuts when I was in secondary school and JC1, but yesterday, I managed to do proper 6 pull-ups. My sit-and-reach was never beyond the 35 markings. But surprisingly, yesterday, I don't know how I did it, but I manage to reach the 54 markings. Which is by the way, an A grade. I was satisfied for my five items, I achieve triple A and double C, which is a Gold standard...
Unfortunately, damn it!, my 2.4 km run was against my wish.. I only able to finish my run in 12.26 seconds which is a grade D. And, that means, my net award for NAPFA is only a Silver..What a disappointment. After all, I'm not that fit as what I thought I am...
But nevermind, who cares about NAPFA. I'm not going for NS, so whatever award I get, I should just feel satisfied...lalalala..



{Thank you Gerald and Gladys for your comforting comments to my previous post. Luv yer both!}

A Dream.

So far in life, I have always thought that I am a boy with no whatsoever talent. Extreme talent I mean. Everything - big or small, important or leisure - that I did / do / acted / act are all very ordinary, average, whatever it is. There is no certain specialty that I can feel that I can be proud of. In band, I am just a so-so trombone player. In choir, I am just a so-so singer. My studies too are not that exceptionally good..There is no something that I am so skillful in. All I am good at is complaining, criticizing, dominating, slacking, 'throwing' money, suggesting without doing the action....
But I am glad that at least all this 'misery' have begun to urge me to hold a dream. I wish to prove to the world that I am good and that I am the best. It may sound egoistic but yeah that is what I dream of going to do. I want to be the best musician of the next decades. There may be some who think that this dream is an impossible dream, but at least I hope I can be. For a start, I would like to learn an instrument, most probably a flute or piano, then start taking the music theory examination or anything that is required for me to read music in the university. Hopefully, by the time I complete my honours in either applied maths or graphic design (approximately 4 years later), I would be fully prepared to study music in university.



Thank you mum for your support in making the basis of this dream.
As for now, A level is my enemy, and I am going to dominate it.

Life.

Dream huge.
Allow your imagination to flow.
Go beyond the present thinking.
Learn from our 'inner telling sense' the direction that will make our life worthwhile.



Fly high. Approach each day as the blessing it is.