The end-point.

Mid-year examination has finally ended.
The updates:
4. Chemistry 9251 / 01 - :) :) :)
5. Chemistry 9251 / 02 - :) :) :)
6. Mathematics 9233 / 02 - :) :) :) :) :) :)
7. Further Mathematics / 02 - :)
Prediction of grades:
B - Mathematics 9233
AO - Chemistry 9251
AO - Further Mathematics 9234

The mid-point.

The mid-point of my mid-year examination is here - completed all the first part of the exam of each subject, and the rating is below.
The following rating of relief, is in relative to the amount of time spent studying and how the paper actually turn out like.
The maximum rating ~ 10 smileys, so here it goes:
1.Further Mathematics 9234 / 01 - :), :)
2.Mathematics 9233 / 01 - :), :), :), :), :), :), :)
3.Chemistry 9251 / 03 - :), :), :), :), :)

the valley song (sing of Your mercy)

You have led me to the sadness
I have carried this pain
On a back bruised, nearly broken
I'm crying out to You

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

When death like a gypsy
Comes to steal what I love
I will still look to the heavens
I will still seek Your face

But I fear you aren't listening
Because there are no words
Just the stillness and hunger
For a faith that assures

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

Alleluia, alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia

While we wait for rescue
With our eyes tightly shut
Face to the ground using our hands
To cover the fatal cut

Though the pain is an ocean
Tossing us around, around, around
You have calmed greater waters
Higher mountains have come down

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of Joy

Yeah!
Alleluia, alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

~ Jars of Clay

Glory to GOD, the Almighty!

Untitled.

"Never give up, never quit...Persist..." - Anonymous

My Temper.

"How is your [my] temper according to your [my] horoscope?"
Leo: JULY 22 - AUGUST 21
"If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don't care about opinions. You don't like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressingdown can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever."
The exact truth of the above analysis in comparison to my temper seems to really fall in a 95% confidence interval. Kewl.

Brain Overloaded.

It has been 4 days since I started revising my work for the Mid-Year examination. And so far I have been able to cram in around 8 chapters of maths each day. But today, the topics that I'm supposed to cover are simply too overloading my brain. I can't believe myself studying Vectors for 2.5 hours. And that's just pure reading of notes, and not yet practising the TYS. Complex numbers wasn't that bad. Tuition: went through vertical circular motion. At first, I thought this chapter will be quite simple. To my surprise, during tuition, I was like a complete idiot. Out of 2.5 hours of tuition, perhaps 2 hours were spent just to practise getting the correct Principle Conservation of Mechanical Energy at general displacement deter. But, at least now I understand better and hope will do justice in the exam. Probably the studying of vectors before tuition injure some of the nerves in my brain to think and absorb the information quickly. Finished tuition at 8.30pm, had my dinner, followed my relaxation period ~ voluming up 'pump it' by black eyed peas while doing some stupid anyhow aerobics move. Haha. It was funny, looking at myself in the mirror. But well, it made my brain rest, and was able to complete the last chapter of Complex Number - De Moivre's Theorem and Nth roots of unity and complex no. Today's schedule was to finish Vectors, Complex No, and Matrices and Linear Spaces. Unfortunately, by the time I was done with the first two and tuition, it was already 11pm. As Matrices and Linear Spaces consists of 8 individual sub-chapter, and it's been my favourite topic and one of the strongest topic, I shall do justice to it and learn it other day, maybe tomorrow after completing 6 chapters of Integration. I'm so gonna be bored of integration. But well, if everything goes well with the schedule, tomorrow will be the day I complete the pure mathematics and mechanics part for the MC and FM mid-year. I'm so proud of myself :)

ACJC Concert Band: MUSE - A night to remember

In the morning, woke up, studied trigonomotry and functions. Went swimming. At 5 met Krystelle to buy friend's birthday present, followed by dinner. After that, we went to Victoria Concert Hall to watch ACJC band concert. Though the emcee wasn't totally good and entertaining, and there are flaws in each of the songs played, but overall it was an enjoyable performance. I love the 'And the multitude with one voice spoke ~ by James L. Hosay', as well as the percussion ensemble. To my surprise, I saw Eunice - a MJ choir member in the first three months this year - performing as a percussionist. Didn't know she was from band. The band is overall good, though not at their best performance, as some of the melody, tunes, rhythm were able to surround me. Their student conductors too were talented and looked very experienced. The encore was the longest I had ever heard, but it was a blast end. Watching this concert has really brought back wonderful memories of performing as a band member just like any other band concert I had watched since the day I left BHSS. Hearing the sliding of the trombone slide revert me to the joy of making the interesting 'noise' from the trombone [Perhaps the only instrument able to do that :) ]. The sound of the band really did make me realise how much I missed band, how much I missed blowing into the mouthpiece of my trombone and produce sounds, music. After the concert, I was telling Krystelle, if I were to join band in MJ, would the self-reward and self-gratitude be better than in Choir. But well I'm happy to be a choir member, going through difficult times to pull through and emerge as a Gold choir for the first time participation in the SYF central judging. It was a total different experience. Well maybe conclusively, performing arts just rawk!

Design.

Bleah. That day, I was just sitting down on my chair, in my room, alone, staring blankly at my monitor, then at the ceiling, down to the floor, and up again at the monitor. What's running in my thought you may ask: It's something to do with "what's after JC?". Where do I want to go? Where can I go alongside all the circumstances - passion, wish, ability, and most importantly finances. During that moment of blankness, I thought to myself, I would like to do anything to do with design. Be it fashion design, interior design, product design, graphic design, web design..This is partly because I do not like science, except for maths of course. And wanting to be in the design sector just wow me. And so I surfed yahoo for universities in US, Europe that offers design courses. I came by this university: Parsons school of design, in New York. The history mentioned that Donna Karan of DKNY as well as Tom Ford are Parson's graduate. I read the admission procedure: Firstly it provides hope since it mentions that do not despair if we do not have the basics in drawing. But, later on, it mentions as a must-to-do is to hand in a slide of my portfolio and home-exam. At least, this school stated what kind of portfolio do they want, unlike some others who blatanly just put 'portfolio'. In portfolio, they want: include work done from actual observation (life drawing), and not copied from two-dimensional sources such as photographs. And for the home-exam:
1. Draw a self-portrait in pencil. Colored pencil is acceptable. Draw from a mirror. Include the foreground and background.
2. Use cut or torn paper to construct a color collage representing an interior space where you spend most of your time.
3. In six steps, visually represent a personal process you engage in every day (ex: tying your shoes, opening a door, brushing your teeth, etc.). Show the key components of the process. You may include drawings or collage in your solution.
4. Provide a brief (500 word), type-written paragraph to describe and analyze an everyday object found in your home.
And, that's like 'gosh' for me. I do not have talent (at least I think so) for that. I am dumb in life drawing, and yet I have to draw my own face. Haiz, it's also not that I will be able to go beyond Singapore. People may ask why don't I major in design in Singapore. Is there such? Even if there is, it seems to be not promising enough. After all, Singapore is more famous for its medicine course, business course, science course.
I'm also so ficle-minded. In the last last last...last post, I mentioned about the dream of being a musician. Well, yeah I still dream of it. After all conducting an orchestra, or band, or choir, or composing a music are still a design in the making. Basically, I feel like move away from science and explore the arts. All these years, it has seemed that my talents, my thinking lies more towards analysis, towards the art of science. But, I refuse to believe that my talent for arts is just so-so. Well, we shall see how. As in for now, 95% I will be aiming for NUS. Most probably majoring in Applied Mathematics. What can I do with that degree? Teaching? maybe. Maybe not. Just hope, it's useful.

Bad.

Bad Harris. Spend such a long time to come up with a revision schedule, and the revised revision schedule..and YET!, for the two days, the schedule was not followed closely. Yesterday: Was supposed to read Impulse and Momentum, Statics of a Rigid Body and do 3 tutorial and 3TYS questions each. Accomplished: Reading and 3 tutorial for impulse and only 1 tutorial for statics. Yesterday wasn't so bad!...
Today is the worse. I am supposed to be finishing Standard Graphs, Partial Fractions, Inequalities, Binomial Theorem, Transformation of Graphs, plus practice 4 TYS questions each. In the end, none,. NONE of them is accomplished.! And now, one by one, my days are filled with 'holidaying' stuff..How can I finish my syllabus?..
I guess I have to switch mode to the ancient Harris, i.e. One week before the exams, read through all the notes without doing any sums. Haiz. Good Luck Harris.

Choir chalet.

Choir chalet: 3D/2N: 7th - 9th June: Costa Sands Downtown East....
The BBQ was on the 7th. It was fun, definitely not boring. It was the first BBQ ever that I didn't feel full, and also the first time that I see there is no leftover food. In fact, the BBQ was lack of food.Hahaha. For the 2 nights, the total number of hours that I sleep was only 4 hours approximately. That was also the first time that I can survive for long without sleep. The simple activities were actually fun: the hiaoing, the wee hours walking, the free style dance/entertainment after midnite in the beach, the bitching, playing in the playground, playing bridge (which btw I just learn in less than 1 hour - and it was actually interesting and fun, no wonder people can play it for long). And, in this period, I see people keep on feeling hungry..hahah. Now, the scariest part of this chalet. In the first night, some of the people play the cards and drink the absoluut vodka. Seeing them getting near drunk, or some even already drunk, is scary. I even had the premonition that I will slap people who begin to start fight with me, but of course luckily it didn't happen.
After the chalet, when I reached home, which was about 1.30. I slept right from 1.45 till 10.30 pm Non-stop! the first time ever I slept for long. And slept again from 1.00am till 11.00am. I muz be really tired of the night without sleep.

Depressed.

I just wish I can follow all my close friends wherever they are now, and wherever they are going. Finishing Junior College in less than half a year. Next year is university, and I'm just scared about it, of what, why, I dunno. I'm getting the addiction to be just alone, without any friends around. I hate loneliness. I do enjoy company. However, it just seems that loneliness is covering me more and more, stronger and stronger. Life is becoming sadder. Life is turning darker. Why.why. I'm finding that reason why, but it seems there is no reason to it. It's just the nature. The nature of what. the nature of me. My self. There are more to my self that I wish I can be. It's always a challenge for me to see things, to feel things, to sense things in an optimistic light. Yet, the pessimist me always outweigh the positive force. My mind is not working properly. It's empty. There is no activity.
Weird it is, looking at all the posts I have posted. One post is happy, the next is sad. One post is in light. One post is dark. Haiz, don't know, why am I always like this. Harris, why?

June begins.

Time really flies. In a blink of an eye, today is already the first day of the new month, June. In the wee hours of 1am, after much 'discussion', I got a headache, a penetrating one. It carries till morning when I try to wake up to go to school. Unfortunately, the ache does not seem to go away, although it did subside from wee. So, I didn't attend school for the lectures, instead I went to school just for the Chemistry SPA. Phew! It was the last spa. No more practical for the year. After SPA, went home to rest. My close ~friend called me to meet up, so we walk around orchard and then had our evening meal.. Follow up, is again at home, slack and slack. Now, tutorial time. Sianz.
Music. So powerful that it penetrates. So soothing that it calms. So creepy that it scares. So gentle that it accompanies. Choice. Life is all about making choice. To success or to fail - choice. To peak or to hide - choice. To think or to act - choice. To be joyful or to be solitude - choice. Colours. Representatives of diversity. Leaders of variety. They are rich. They are unique. They are full of confidence.
- Colourful music, I shall choose my life to be -