Irony. Retributions. Rewards.

Has life ever been simple? Recently, it struck me to come to think that life (suppose to be simple) seems so complex because it consists of endless ironies, retributions and rewards. There are many, countless, times when we set out to do something, something else happen. There are times when we comment, compliment, praise or insult someone but in actual fact we mean the otherwise. Often, we put someone on a pedestal but all that respect we gave was in return to use that person. Sometimes, we abuse the beauty of friendship and give birth to backstabbing and silent hatred. And so frequent that we do not even realise, we contradict ourselves, our actions - what we say earlier and what we say later, what we do earlier and what we do later, what we say we gonna do and the actual action that we carry out. Irony.

Of those ironies, they often landed to retributions. Along the journey of life, somehow we experience problems, heartache, painful memories. These torture happen due to a cause. Subtle as it is, the cause is often something (or something similar) that ourselves have done before - not necessarily to the same person or object that causing us pain but to other people. We are therefore experiencing the pain that we have caused others. But many the times, we do not realise that those pain is what you produce in others, and often we just blame and curse the person that cause us the pain. We hardly converge the problem that perhaps it is a retribution.

Similar to retributions, of course there are rewards. Every good deeds that we have done, will end up in our rewards in the future. The rewards may be direct or indirect. Often, it is subtle. When we indulge in our happiness, it may be because we have given happiness to others.

The above is just some thoughts that happen to linger in my brain. They may not be true. But yet, it is often what I feel or observe.

And to end this entry, are we here for a purpose? Do our lives have meaning?